Uniquely Bright: Experiences and Tips? 1309
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An anonymous reader writes: "I would like to hear from fellow /.ers that consider themselves unusually but non-traditionally 'bright' and how you have dealt with it. What are you doing now? What did you do for education? How is your life now? I'm on the verge of entering college, never having liked school much yet always in love with learning. I would like some tips, suggestions, and experience in living with an extra degree of intensity, depth, and general intelligence. I love learning, yet I never have found school enjoyable. I'm incredibly intense and concentrated, yet I often become bored of specific projects in a few months. It's not anything diagnosable (I've looked into it) but more an inherent trait. Academically, I have managed to be alright, but nothing spectacular. Lots of people I meet think I should have a 4.0 easy, but I'm pretty far from it. My interests are broad, from computers (linux/os x/php/mysql/etc) to photography to cookery, I'm creative and technical. Friends and others recognize my strength in these areas. I can't stand being completely technical alone, but I love it in moderation. My attention span is practically unlimited when I am interested in a topic, and I get intensely interested in it. I want to hear from people who share some or all of these traits. I'm just coming up on entering college, so most of my life is ahead of me. I'd like to hear about everything from your education to your career to things you wish you had done differently!" Sounds like an INTP to me.
PPPOP (Score:2, Interesting)
Intelligent and similar traits as the poster has mentioned has led me to live a near miserable life. Education was never viable because I lost interest in the mind-numbing tasks assigned to me, and the way that only stupid people who are too ignorant to realise that the work assigned to them is trivial are praised for the bookworm success. You have to be stupid or entirely ignorant to be a successful person in this society crafted by charlatans and intellectual inferiors.
Failure to submit yourself to the stupidity of our self-crafted society just leaves you isolated and miserable.
Is this guy serious? (Score:5, Interesting)
It sounds to me like this guy is insecure about his intellegence and is falling back on Slashdot to boost his confidence. He describes himself as "uniquely bright," but admits he hasn't done anything spectacular to merit this title. Lots of people use Linux; that doesn't make them smart. The same thing goes with not doing well in high school. It doesn't mean they were too smart for their education, it just means they were different. Heartbreak
I realize that a lot of geniuses didn't do well in high school, but then, they weren't labeled such until after they did something to prove themselves. I could label myself as a champion bodybuilder because I go to the gym everyday, but the truth is I'm only benching 225. The same principle applies: you can't call yourself something unless you can back it up.
You're going to college and you have the rest of your life ahead of you. Find something you're good at, and stick with it. Just don't fall into the mentality that if you fail at something, it's because you're too "bright."
well (Score:2, Interesting)
Justify Yourself (Score:3, Interesting)
You are part of a ruling elite that sits around wondering "Why isn't my genius praised?" while brighter, better people than yourself suffer hunger, violence and deprevation
You want me to take you seriously? Ditch the capitalistic darwinistic me-me-me anti-enlightenment bullshit and find something bigger than yourself to fight for.
Even fundamentalist christians display more charity than you. Get a life. Join an aid organisation. Join your brothers and sisters in fighting for justice and equality.
Recognize that the core reason why no-one cares for your unique talents is that under capitalism, you are only worth what you can sell those talents for. Got a talent for sport? Have millions. Got a talent for being nice to people? Sucker!
It's called "Renaissance Man" (Score:1, Interesting)
Do whatever interests you, but do it well. Pursue seriously, but do not dabble. It is far too easy to become attracted to the beginnings of one distraction after another, instead of the harder-fought completion of one fulfillment after another.
You are not alone.
Re:Just know this: (Score:3, Interesting)
Exactly the line I was thinking along. Good Fight Club reference, sir:
This is your life [lyricsbox.com]
You are not a beautiful and unique snowflake
You are the same decaying organic matter as everything else
We are all part of the same compost heap
We are the all singing, all dancing, crap of the world
You are not your bank account
You are not the clothes you wear
You are not the contents of your wallet
You are not your bowel cancer
You are not your grande latte
You are not the car you drive
You are not your fucking khaki's
Get over yourself. You are just LAZY. (Score:1, Interesting)
1. Always choose right over wrong. Don't start harping about "what's right?" You know what it is. When faced with a decision, choose right.
2. Do NOT quit. If you start something, FINISH it. Leaving things undone leaves YOU undone. You think you are not yet achieving your potential? Try adopting this rule.
3. When you cross paths with someone, try to leave them better for having met you. You'll be surprised how much this one contributes to your own sense of worth.
That's it.
Reserve the word Bright (Score:4, Interesting)
Why not use intelligence in it's many forms for what the guy is after.
Atheist has a negative meaning foisted upon us by the Theists that seems to be unable to accord the Faith "reasoning" to non-theists that they themselves hold so dear.
Re:well (Score:4, Interesting)
I don't feel like playing amateur psychologist today, but I suspect there are more people around with your mindset than you might realise at that age. I met quite a few at university, and discovered that they are very good at some things, and very bad at others. Many things, including their job satisfaction and their value to an employer, depend on how well they play to their strengths.
For example, it seems they can achieve a relatively large amount in a given period of time if they are interested in what they are doing, making them very good at brief but difficult tasks where they can focus. On the other hand, they seem to be quite easily distracted by things they find more interesting, which can be a strain if you're trying to keep up a regular 9-5 job in any technology industry: in the real world, there's a lot of grunt work that needs to be done too.
IME, people with this sort of mindset tend to be natural "starters" rather than "finishers", and go for the big picture rather than the details -- they're better at producing innovative ideas than dotting the i's and crossing the t's. I've concluded that they are the natural candidates for "leading edge" research posts: let them wander with their heads in the clouds, and let those with more pragmatic, solid mindsets turn the useful ideas into reality.
Aw, crap. I wasn't going to go amateur psychologist. But hey, there you go, maybe it'll provide some ideas for you to play with.
Discipline is neccessary (Score:2, Interesting)
Go to a college that won't just rubber-stamp you (Score:5, Interesting)
New College ain't the only school like this out there. Schools like this exist because some students don't do as well as they potentially can in a academically strict environment (like highschool and early college). Get more out of your education than a diploma. Spend four (or more!) years being yourself and growing from it.
Re:Your first textbook should be ... (Score:2, Interesting)
First, he still has some obnoxious ego problem. It's not "I'm smarter than you, neener neener!", but it's still "I don't mean to bother you, but I'm smarter than you." This is not a smart way of dealing with other people.
Second, people who are smart, yet do nothing with it, are also stupid. He derides school, yet obviously did not give his studies his full attention. If an assignment was mundance, did he try to spend his free time going above and beyond in learning more about the topic? It doesn't sound like it, he is too lazy and arrogant to believe should learn more. The world looks down on people who have talents and refuse to use them.
And as parent article explained, why not move onto other challenges in life? If he is so bright, can he go into a room full of people and carry on conversations with all of them? Being an amazing person requires far more than IQ. I'd honestly like to see if his maturity, common sense, people skills, and personal happiness are on par with his brightness. Somehow, I doubt they are. If the author feels he so amazing, then why doesn't he tackle some of life's other great challenges?
Heh, I don't hate the author at all, he just needs to realize he isn't nearly as smart as he thinks he is. And as soon as he realizes this, his questions of "How do I deal with being so great" will be replaced with "So many people can do things in life I can't. How can work harder at becoming like they are?"
Re:Your first textbook should be ... (Score:3, Interesting)
Do what YOU want to do (Score:2, Interesting)
I wanted to study physics in Univ. but went with Elec Eng because I thought I had to be practical and I could always double major. The professors made it impossible to double and I should have switched to physics.
Throughout life there are times when you do what others want you to, but you will do best following your own path. I think this is true for brilliant individuals as well as everyone else as we are all unique. But we could all blossom if we just followed our own path.
You don't sound like you need anyone else to lead you but have your own interests already. Follow them.
I completely understand... (Score:2, Interesting)
My interests have always been far-spread (again, from programming, robots, to playing an instrument, learning foreign languages, painting, etc). I've always compared myself akin to the "Renaissaince Men" of centuries past: Thomas Jefferson, or Benjamin Franklin as good examples.
And no, I don't think it is trite of you to ask such a question. Too often our society looks down upon intelligence, and being bright. That's why all the US schools are doing away with Valedictorians, b/c it makes the not-top-students or bright ones feel "bad".
Anyways, back to your question, you will probably experience the same thing in University that you have been to date. You will manage to get by classes, everyone will think you *should* have a 4.0, when in reality you're getting by just barely on grades alone. My best suggestion is to learn what you can, get to be friends with the profs who actually take an interest in your education and learning and talk with them and share ideas. But also don't just give up on school. It definitely helps you meet people, open doors, and move onto things that you would have had difficulty without the schooling and degree.
Also, join out of class activities. Student groups, engineering teams, and so on. These are great chances to meet with people like you and do truly amazing things. I was a member of an engineering team that I became the head of during my second year of undergrad, raised $250k and built a 20-meter computerized, electric airship. The project let me expand beyond any syllabus or expectation set forth by standardization.
Don't lose your self-confidence. Sure, don't be "cocky" or overconfident, more than likely it will lead you to make stupid mistakes or just make people that don't know you dislike you. But being self-assured and self-reliant is a terrific asset.
Re:PPPOP (Score:2, Interesting)
The world is not run by intelligent people, period. Only if you are willing to be greedy, uncaring, singleminded and unyielding will you EVER be in a position of control. Everyone else gets to do the menial tasks that the overlords dictate.
Intelligent people realize that our current way of running things is horrible and they want no part of it. We want to do things the RIGHT way, the way that helps the most people and cuts through all the CRAP. Boring tasks are created by BORING people.
Don't ever tell me I need to jump through a hoop in the hopes that I may one day be able to remove it. That's EXACTLY what they want you to think. If it was that simple, this world wouldn't have any hoops AT ALL. Remember, YOU don't make the rules, the people with MONEY do.
The only way you can be happy is to challenge yourself. Find the funnest, most interesting task you can and PUSH it to the limit. Bring something new into this world and the world will surely notice.
No, I disagree (Score:5, Interesting)
This is possibly the worst possible motivation for getting a graduate degree (I should add I'm an academic myself so I have an idea of what I am talking about). The ONLY reason to get a PhD these days is for love of the subject. I couldn't bear the idea of not being involved in research in my field and my colleagues all felt the same. You will never make up the money you lose doing it, and in the end its not like people fall at my feet in worship everytime I use my title. Its a long, hard slog usually, intelligence is not the main factor in getting through anyway: its a work ethic and a bit of grit.
You can get just as much intellectual stimulation in industry if you land the right post. And get paid handsomely for doing it. The graduate degree is only for those who truly want it, we quite often see those who think of it as an intellectual penis-extending exercise fall by the wayside. And rightly so to be honest.
Be passionate (Score:2, Interesting)
I consider myself to be unusually intelligent. (Score:2, Interesting)
Here's what I've done with my life.
I've managed to screw up the few relationships I've had, either through my own fault or somehow falling together with true bitches. Either way, what that says about me is nothing to brag about.
I've never made more than $32,000 in any given year, and that only once... other than that, I've never broken the 30k barrier.
I've managed to get fired or laid off from every job I've ever had. I'm 30 years old, too, not 17. One of the more notable jobs (the last, in fact), I lost because I was under the incredibly stupid illusion that my performance mattered, when it had nothing to do with my job retention. The social and political details of said job still elude me, but being a "friendlier, more liked" (and I mean liked, not likable, there is a difference I think) would probably had done the trick. The polite, curt, slave like hell to get things done attitude wasn't a winner.
I'm unable to understand people, or really have any friends. I'm generally unhappy. Ever try to make conversation at work? I simply can't, and the conversation other's initiate is insipid. 10% misunderstood politics/world events, 30% pop music, 30% movies, 30% social gossip. Feel free to substitute 15-20% video games for movies in a younger crowd. I can't relate to any of that.
Imagine having a fight with you're girlfriend, and only being able to react rationally. Rationality is the tool I use to (try to) solve all the problems I care to try solving, and it's perversely incapable of doing such in those circumstances. Short of the neurological expertise to make her brain behave like mine, there is nothing that can be said that will defend you, make her stop, make it feel any better either for you or her, or keep it from happening in the future. I'm told that she hates me because I won't leave, and that she wants me to leave because she hates me. Asking her why doesn't elicit any more sensable answers, asking her how to fix things for her elicits "I don't want it to be fixed". I don't really want another girlfriend at this point, but assuming I do the outlook is bleak. I don't expect much better from anyone else.
I have bad credit. Not so smart you say? I knew I was ruining it at the time, I just didn't care. Not so sure I do now. Except that, with my miniscule earning potential, this detail means I'll never own a decent home or car.
I have communication problems even with people who would otherwise seem to be of above average intelligence. Many times during my life, I've been asked to do something (usually at work), and I would complete the task, and make remarks to that effect. I would say "I just finished blah-blahing, is there anything else you need me to do?". That person/manager might say "I told you to blah-blah, now go do it right." 3 or 4 exchanges like this, me biting my tongue so as to not inject too much sarcasm, and they'd not get it. I'd repeat the same thing they had just said, but somewhere in their brains something was misfiring and they weren't hearing it. How do I know it was them, and not me? Not all such people have been assholes, and one in particular apologized only minutes later, saying that it just wasn't clicking as I spoke the word. Other times, someone else would be present, and point it out (strangely when they said it, it would be "heard").
In short, intelligence only allows me to see just how pathetic it all is. Worse, it won't prevent me from embarrassing myself by hitting the submit button (though it does suggest checking the "post anonymously" box).
rules for smart people... (Score:2, Interesting)
2. You may be smarter than most people, but don't act like it. The hordes of dumb people don't like people who act smart (whether they are or not).
3. If you want to have friends, learn to like dumb people.
4. Find one thing you have a passion for, and excell at that. You may have to work a "day job" that you hate until your chance comes along to do what you like.
5. If you must have a "companion", find somebody either like yourself, or at least somebody that wont constrain you - you need your freedom and solitude to be creative.
6. Dont automaticaly dismiss the usefullness of certain substances. Caffeine can be very usefull, as can certain other things (ahem) in helping you both focus on your projects and other times clear you mind for rest. Remember, we're smart people, and we should know how to use things to our advantage...
Serious advice: I'll take you seriously. (Score:2, Interesting)
Yeah, I don't think you're alone on this one. I remember wishing someone would give me some real advice. Here's what I think.
As I think about this, these are the things that I would tell my younger self, but, I REALLY enjoyed my younger days and going through what you're about to go through. I think I look back fondly because as I was going through college and all my experiences, I kept reminding myself that one day, I would look back and wonder how it went so fast. So, as I look back now, I wonder how it went so fast, but then I remember enjoying every minute of it. I can't help but smile and look forward to my future...and my own baby's future. Good luck. And remember, one day, you'll look back and wonder how it went so fast.
Re:Advice (Score:5, Interesting)
However, if you are rather bright you should realize that you just asked for a book length dissertation on the subject, which is entirely unreasonable for a forum of this sort.
Find yourself a home schooling support group in your area and through them an older person who's been through it and talk to them for few hours. You need an honest to God, flesh and bone mentor. You're in the wrong place.
KFG
From one INTP to another (Score:1, Interesting)
From Yet Another INTP. . . (Score:5, Interesting)
I've never quite fit in and might possibly fit your description, although I would never publicly declare myself "unusually but non-traditionally bright" even though I may sometimes think so if I haven't done something really stupid recently (which I'm prone to do).
At age 34 I think I'm finally more or less comfortable with my future plans and how I fit into things.
Now, the INTP thing. That's a Myers-Briggs [personality] Type Indicator. I've never been much into classifying people, but I felt personally validated after reading some material on the subject. Basically I'm an INTP which is less than 5% of the world's population, so I figure it's okay that I don't seem to think like "everyone else" (for better or worse). The descriptions of INTP's thinking, working and love habits really hit home, too, so that made me feel better. David Keirsey has a couple of books _Please Understand Me_ and _... II_ which cover the subject.
If MB typing interests you, check out _Do What You Are_ by Paul D. Tieger & Barbara Baroon-Tieger. It suggests occupations that match the interests of each of the types.
Like I say I'm a bit skeptical of psychological studies and categorizations in general, but using the above material for validation and occasionally a sanity check helped me feel better, although I don't know if it made any tangible difference in my life. My career was already set when I read these books.
Back to practical advice and personal experience, I had no clue what I wanted to do after high school. I went to college as a default. I did okay at first, but my grades went downhill after a year or two. I was good with computers but couldn't imagine any job I would like involving them; I imagined sitting in front of a green screen typing all day and didn't like it. I had a job with a big company, though, and when working a remote site my terminal went down. The tech showed up while I was there, unplugged the modem and plugged in a new one. I said (or maybe thought...I can't remember now) "you get paid to do that? I can do that." So I got in touch with his manager and found out what the job requirements were: an Associate's degree. So I changed my college focus and got the 2-year degree and happened to get that job just as I graduated. From there my experiences and job interests expanded.
So I guess my career advice is to open your eyes and watch what other people are doing; if you like it, find out how you can do it. That probably sounds obvious to everyone else, but at that age I was very introspective and other people didn't interest me much.
I hate sales. And it sounds like you probably do, too: "Friends and others recognize my strength in these areas." I usually say that I'm bad at first impressions but when people see what I can do they gain respect. When I say sales I include the forward type of behavior involved in cold selling, meeting women and job hunting, because I think they use very similar talents that I (and I suspect you) lack. A couple of things that helped me in this area a while back were college classes in interpersonal communication and business communication. A few customer service seminars at work helped a lot, too. This is important: having techincal skills is good, but these days you *have* to have the people skills to be secure. I still vehemently hate cold selling and job hunting, but I have good customer service skills and work well with just about everyone.
The rest you will decide for yourself as you learn and get more experience in exactly who you are and what you want. I didn't really figure it out until quite recently. I looked at other people and couldn't find anyone whose example I wanted to follow. At 30 I kinda freaked out, quit my job and did some other odd stuff because I just didn't like where my life was going. The past 3 years I've spent recovering fina
get to work (Score:2, Interesting)
but intelligence isn't that useful if it doesn't accomplish anything. few people or places are going to pay you for the apples you pluck from the brilliance tree and toss their way. neither will half-completed projects get you much recognition. what i've learned is to stop playing "Good Will Hunting", to stop romanticizing myself and blaming human existence for its banality, and to just get down to work. you will also quickly find that people admire that more than most things. what intelligence really gives a person is the free time to persue their own interest after their work is done. that is the gift in itself.
the worst thing an intelligent person can allow themselves to do is to slide into cynicism. without a work ethic to balance it out, cynicism + intelligence = underachivement.
Try a broad field (like architecture) (Score:3, Interesting)
Can't say I consider myself so bright any more now that I'm older, but I suggest you try a field that has a lot of width, like architecture.
That was my experience. I was lucky to get six years to complete undergrad (thanks Mom and Dad!) so I could do the four year commitment to architecture school while still taking quite a few religion, business, art and history courses. Never failed a class and graduated with nearly 200 hours. Best thing that could have happened, even though I didn't realize it at the time. (I transferred too late in my freshman year and couldn't get into Arch school until my junior year.)
And now, even though I've been in this career for a while, I still enjoy it. Architecture has a lot of different opportunities. You can develop into a designer, focusing on the art and philosophy. Or you can explore the technical side becoming a specialist in specifications, construction administration, or some particular design focus such as laboratory planning. Other opportunities include project, financial and office management, marketing and graphics, or CAD, computer and technical support. Really, there's something for everyone.
The trick is to not focus too soon. Most professions (medicine, law, accounting, architecture) have a range of skill areas. Even computer science, as specific as it is, has opportunities in marketing, usability, testing, graphics, business and project management, sales, internal technical support, and human resources--not just programming.
The downside of not focusing early is that you'll always be behind the savant who did. But if you know yourself not to be that way (as you do) don't even try to compete. I always think its funny when the working end of the screwdriver types (in my profession the designers) lament that everyone else goes home on time and has more of a life. They miss that it's a team effort, and they need the rest of us as much as we need them. (Besides the fact that such focus can sometimes lead to massive mis-direction and inefficiency. Although I will grant that it takes that type and effort to yield the once-in-a-lifetime genius work of architecture. Once. Among dozens of failures and misses.)
So be sure to shop around and keep yourself learning broadly. Force yourself to learn things you don't want to know. And remember, even though you might be known as your office's Cliff [tvheaven.com] Clavin [tvland.com], it only takes one time for that single obscure bit of knowledge or experience to land your firm a mega contract and bump you up the ladder five rungs.
Ignore the grumpy assholes (Score:3, Interesting)
Ok so now I'm going to make a few statements and offer some suggestions that I expect you to ignore because even if hadn't told you to ignore me you'd do you're own thing anyway. First off you're situation isn't all that unique. There are plenty of bright young people that didn't like HS who now find themselves wondering what to do with their lives. There are also plenty of bright not-so-young-anymore people who went through the exact same thing you're going through. I count myself a member of the latter group and I imagine that a lot
Go to University. Not because it's good for you, or because "it will help you get a job" but because it's fun. If you love to learn as much as you claim to you'll have a blast at Uni and can diversify your education as much as you like (or until you run out of money) If you haven't already given it some thought you may want to consider majoring in business management (*disclaimer: this is what my degree is in.) If your attention span is fickle as you say you'll probably enjoy this degree. You do one or two class from each of the major areas of the business program and move on. The focus is on giving the student a working knowledge of many different areas, plus there are a lot of elective credits to play with, I took a lot CS and extra Econ courses with mine.
Don't get stuck in the paradigm of living a "normal" life. If you so chose you can abandon the concepts of "career" and "permanent residence." At 25 I'm on my third post-college job and second career-track. I've also put in one cross country move and I'm starting to think of doing another in 12-18 months. This has worked well for me because I do bore easilly and am somewhat less risk-averse than average I think. I like exploring new cities, mastering new jobs and adding to my portfolio of skills. There are downsides to being a white-collar vagabond however. It's hard to say goodbye to close friends and family, retirement accounts don't grow as fast and there are long worrying spells when you have no health insurance. Also you'll probably never make as much money as someone who choses a more staid and serious life. You'll also never be a true expert in any feild, where others aquire great depth of knowledge, you'll aquire great breadth, and may just be a lot happier for it. I'm not saying this is the way for you to live or even that it's a permanent deal for me either but it's an idea to keep in mind should you find yourself feeling bored and trapped a year or two into first "real" job outta college.
Diversify your hobbies and live outside of your head some -or- don't forget you have a body attached to that big monkey brain of yours. If you get bored of specific projects or hobbies easilly diversifying and adding some physical ones can really help. It's nice to get a break from thinky stuff on a regular basis. To break up the monotany of my day jobs and thinky hobbies I also cycle, run, hike, backpack, lift weights, brew (and drink) beer and have plans to start moonshining. These are all activities that require me to manipulate the real world or my own body, not just bits on the computer screen or words in my head.
To close I'll borrow from the great Bard himself, remember "to thine own self be true." Do whatever it is that you think will make you happy and keep doing it until your not happy with it anymore, then find something else.
Focus, Grasshoper (Score:2, Interesting)
Pick a goal, and move towards it. You may lose interest in the details along the way, but keep in mind your ultimate goal, and use that as motivation to re-focus on the details.
Without a focus, you will be at the mercy of your mind. Instead, endeavor to use your intellect as a tool to move yourself along.
"It is by will alone I set my mind in motion." -Frank Herbert's DUNE
Best advice for college... (Score:3, Interesting)
From a fellow INTP, been there, done that...
I've had the best success when I approached a class a a 'new game' rather than an opportunity to learn. If you think that college is a citadel of learning, you are in for a big reality check. I have a pal who holds several degrees (BS, MS, going for the MBA) and he put it best, "Professors are not there to teach you. They are there to give you a grade. And I mean 'give you' the grade they feel you deserve."
They are people just like you and I, no more and no less. Imagine yourself as a professor for a moment.
Ok, so it's a game. The object of the game is to get a professor to give you a good grade. Learn who they are, how they operate, what they expect, and do some work.
My favorite example is a Socio-cultural Anthropology class I took (requirement filler). The prof. was about as PC as they get. We had two texts and an autobiography to read. I managed a B without opening any of them (just to see if I could do it I think.) I just answered the insanely easy multiple-guess exams in the most PC way I could. I hit it right on the head, that's what she wanted us to "learn" - the PC crap, not any real anthropology methodology (hint: we had movies to watch ever other week, that was a dead givaway we were not going to 'learn' anything).
Anyway, enough of my ramblings... remember, college is a big new game to you. One that you haven't learned the rules to yet, that you haven't mastered yet, that's rather difficult and many people can't master. It's the grade game ultimately, with a side bet on if you manage to make a few close friends there and learn a bit from it as you go. Go win it if you think you can
p.s. I'm a hotshot developer [ibm.com] with a good job I enjoy, and I almost finished my BS (got enticed by the boom, or more precisely, the money that was available back in the 90's). I may still get that degree yet !
Re:Unskilled and Unaware of It? (Score:2, Interesting)
District 200 in Illinois' policy on correction of spelling errors: "only when appropriate." As if it is sometimes not appropriate to correct spelling. Don't want to make the kids feel bad because they can't spell...
Sounds like an INTP to me. (Score:1, Interesting)
Too funny. I'm an INTP, and this guy sounds just like me.
To all of you who think this guy's a quack, just remember, we only comprise ~1% of the population, and, yes, we are weird.
How did I deal with it? Let's see. I started in CS at the age of 7. Even though I interned at a military lab working on the Cray II and on a laser project in high school, I couldn't get into a decent school because I had blown off high school and had a 2.something. (That's right: I don't even remember.)
Then I went to a local colege for a while studying EE. (CS was too boring. These guys didn't know anything about CS.) That was kinda boring too because my dad was an EE and had tought me most of the stuff I was learning in class. Because it was 'kinda boring', I didn't do my homework, and had a GPA on par with what I did in high school.
So I quit, went to work as Head of Software Engineering for a few years, grew up a little (I got me some discipline!), and after 5 years went back to school at the same place. I made straight A's for two semesters and transfered out to an Ivy League school. (The only 'good' school that would accept me.)
There I learned I didn't know anything about my subject of choice, Physics. I was a math n00b to them. (You getting the "can't make up my mind about what I want to do" picture yet? CS->EE->Photography->Physics). I got my degree after two more years, and applied to a dozen graduate schools. (Heck, I'd applied to two dozen undergraduate schools and only been accepted by one!) I got accepted to every one but M.I.T. to my surprise, and went off to a Ph.D. program.
There I learned I wasn't cut out to be a Ph.D. Not that I wasn't interested, mind you. Not that the work was so hard I couldn't do it. It just wore on me.
I couldn't keep up at the pace they wanted; rather I didn't WANT to keep up at the pace they wanted. I wanted to be creative -- to dance, draw, play my piano, invent, to study new subjects, to do all kinds of things. And they wanted to do Physics. And do Physics. And do Physics.
I started having nightmares about school. I had nightmares about my family. I had nightmares about everything.
I had serious stress problems, a mental breakdown. I knew I was smart, smarter than some of the people around me, but I just wasn't cut from the right cloth to make it there. That alone completely screwed with my head.
So I quit, went home, and had nightmares for another three years about school. (Noone should wake up in cold sweats from having nightmares about being too exhausted to finish a 25 page long math problem that you couldn't figure out three years ago.)
Now I'm doing what I have always loved doing. I'm inventing on my own, doing my own thing. And yes, I'll never win the Nobel. And yes, of my many projects, it's possible I'll never make a million.
But I might.
And I'm happy.
I only have my B.S... no Ph.D. for me. No M.S. for me. But then again, I tought myself almost everything else I learned in life, except for all the math I learned as an undergraduate. Nothing I saw while I was in the Ph.D. program made me think I couldn't learn it in my own time by myself. As my own boss, I don't give a damn if I don't have a Ph.D., anyway.
So my suggestion to you? DON'T get caught up in your own smarts. Yes, you're smart. But you're not the kind of smart the world likes to parade around and give awards to.
You'll do better at anything that involves knowing quite a bit about - but not everything about - lots of subjects. You'll probably never hold the same job for more than 5 years. It's likely you'll have a very hard time finding a compatible mate.
But if you can learn to just accept who you are, and if, by some miracle, you can get your family to accept who you are, then you'll do alright.
You'll probably never live up to everyones expectations of "what you COULD be."
If you're not too de
Re:Assume you suck until working w/ the best (Score:3, Interesting)
One of my favorites was the first peer review of a young intern, only about a hundred lines of source code but probably the biggest thing he'd ever written. I could see something either wrong (buffer overflows, magic numbers, etc.) or missing (no error checking, no comments, no assertions, ...) on nearly everything he did.
I know it's cruel, but to watch their over-exuberant pimply faces go from "Joy! I'm doing Important Things!" fall to "All the things I've been gloating over mean absolutely nothing" is oddly fun.
Of course, I follow the rule "reprove in private, praise in public" (with another team member present), I try to do it early, before they have much emotional investment in their work (usually after a few days of work), and always do ego rebuilding and team building afterword. Usually something like "But it's a good start, considering you just graduated. Let's sit down together and fix a few of those holes."
Am I alone in this perverse pleasure?
Social Skills makes him more money in long run (Score:1, Interesting)
The internet boom and computer technology and science in general gave some extra wealth to people who would generally not have much at all. But that appears to have been somewhat of an anomaly. Now that these geeks have built a communication network capable of outsourcing, they have signed their own death warrant, financially speaking.
Re:Unskilled and Unaware of It? (Score:2, Interesting)
You are screwed (Score:3, Interesting)
The big problem that you'll face is that there are many, many smart people. 50% of the population's going to be "above average" in intelligence, after all. Employers would rather have a stupid person who actually gets stuff done rather than a smart person who doesn't - and worse still, they don't have to choose. There a lot of smart people who can actually sit down and force themselves to do unpleasant, boring tasks - just about everyone with a phD has had to deal with incredible tedium, especially people with phD's in the sciences.
Since you're going into college, I'd suggest staying the hell away from an engineering major, or any major that has right answers - your only prayer is the liberal arts. You're probably going to have a difficult time with college if only because you're undisciplined, and college has very little inherent structure. Since it's possible to not go to classes without any short-term consequences, and you're a very short-term kind of person, you could flunk out your first semester. Be careful.
Best case scenario, you'll probably end up working for yourself. You're the worst kind of employee, the biggest pain in the ass - you're too smart for menial work so that'll get done half-assed, and you'll get bored of whatever work you're given very, very quickly, but if you're given a really creative-type job with a lot of lattitude, you'll probably end up doing nothing and failing miserably.
Re:Advice (Score:1, Interesting)
Been there, done that (on Linux, so Maya stays, but s/photoshop/FilmGIMP/). Except instead of shitty RAM (but I've had plenty of that too), it was a shitty power supply that could barely support dual Athlons at idle. Kick off a batch render that runs for more than 30 minutes or so, and the comp would reboot. Until one hot day, when it went into coma mode and the PS fried itself. That was quite entertaining.
Oh, now look what I've done. What was the topic again?
I know a few "smart" people who have zero motivation. They could do just about anything with a computer that they wanted (with very few exceptions), but all of them sit on their collective asses and chat on IRC all day. Sound familiar to anyone? Well, if it does, try to do something about it. Try to get them interested in something.
Me? I ran for years protecting the assumption that everyone is as smart as I, but that little holdout has been long since chipped away. I have found myself with the ability to pick up and learn new things, computer-related or not. Everything is a challenge and, as I find myself saying quite often (to justify my position to other, usually): "How hard could it possibly be?" This is the kind of mindset that gets such interesting results as everyone else wheeling up wooden catapults for a project in Physics, and me unloading a 200-pound solid steel Ballista. Taught myself to weld, mainly because I wanted to try it (and not because I was not skilled enough in the art of wood working to build it from wood instead).
Just trying new things has gone a long way towards my figuring out what I want to do with my life (seeing as how I'm only 17 at this point). Take any opportunity you possibly can to try and learn to do something you've never done before, no matter what you think the outcome may be. If all else fails, you'll have another skillset to stuff on the mental dusty shelf in the corner, but you may just find something you like to do.
The path to ? (Score:5, Interesting)
I couldn't take college and dropped out because of my arrogance, similar as yours.
Maybe you were arrogant, maybe not. There are a lot of smart people who don't fit into the traditional understanding of "intelligent", "smart" and "clever".
Robert Sternberg [yale.edu] is a psycologist whose life project is to show that there are multiple types of "intelligence" and current "intelligence tests" only measure one or two of them.
When we look at the life of people such as Tomas Edison for example, who dropped out of school and was then fired from work for being "too clever" (he created a auto-responder to a morse signal that was supposed to verify if he was awake) it becomes obvious that the school system is not suited for educating some of the smartest people that have lived.
I belive Sternberg is righ, I belive there are very intelligent young people who are being labelled "arrogant" and a lot of other negative names because they are not "connecting" with the "system" as they "should be".
So what is the right way for such people ? Follow your instinct.. It will be hard, it will be difficult and there will be ups and downs but at least you have a chance to be *yourself*
Re:You are screwed (Score:3, Interesting)
My take:
College, Travel, Work, Learn, Take Risks (Score:2, Interesting)
Go to College, but consider a non-traditional program such as a Work College or a Great Books Program. There are numerous small schools with alternative programs scattered around the US. Find one that seems to fit you.
Travel abroad either as part of College or before/break in the middle/right after. Rough it. Experiencing different cultures the hard way disrupts your rituals and forces you to deal with people, places, things that you normally would avoid.
Get a job. If you are still in high school and bored, get a job now, tomorrow. If you are going to college, try to work part time if you can. Try to find a job that relates to your hobbies or that you enjoy, but any job where you work hard and must deal with people and take direction from superiors will do. Save the money your earn, unless you need it for education.
Keep learning all the time. College, Travel, Work will provide many learning experiences, but you need to learn faster than that. Read as much as you can, across a broad range of topics. Read fiction and non-fiction, Biography, History, Religion, Politics, Science, whatever interests you.
Lastly, take risks in your choices about how to proceed in life. Don't avoid doing something because you are afraid to fail, and don't let anxiety keep you from something that you know is what you really want. If you are given the choice between continuing with a comfortable life and going off on a new, frightening, but potentially rewarding path. Take the new path. Disrupt your mental routine and you will advance. Become the routine and you will stay the same forever.
Another perspective. (Score:2, Interesting)
I am just as guilty as the next person in causing my own undoing. I do take a little from the fact that I at least acknowledge it, and try to fight it. Who knows, even I may not end up useless after all.
Most of the "smart people" I communicate with tend to think as futurists; they derive enjoyment from extrapolating novel outcomes from any given starting point in life. Sometimes they dream up futures that are somewhat Orwellian, and sometimes they imagine a world that operates better (if not faster).
My personal view, which I'd encourage you to consider (or disregard, as you wish) is either cheerful or hopeless, depending on how you want to use what it offers. If you're under age 30 today, I believe you'll get the opportunity to make that choice.
Today we are seeing a high rate of proliferation and evolution of "cooperative" (capable of arbitrarily routable information exchange) computing systems, which can be divided into a few categories:
(1) Physical Systems: Multiprocessor systems which utilize CPUs in concert to process information. These systems include everything from dual CPU servers to supercomputing clusters. The defining factor is close physical proximity of each CPU to the others in the system, and the use of local (isolated from the rest of the world) high speed interconnects to transfer information between CPUs.
(2) Geo-Localized Systems: I guess you could think of the collective computer systems which comprise a university campus as an example of this category. Any system which communicates with other systems in the grid constitutes a member of this group. Various methods of dividing systems into smaller groups (networks) are usually employed for political and administration purposes, but those divisions exist only to serve specific human goals for the locale.
(3) Global System: The Internet (and newer global academic networks under development) represents the infancy of a flexible, high speed, and resilient virtualized grid of computing units. As the network evolves, the important units will include lots of combinations of categories (1) and (2). We're setting the stage for the real fun.
Assuming current trends in information growth continue (manifested most clearly as faster computing systems connected to larger instantly accessible data stores), I don't think we'll have to wait *too* many years to see the rise of a distributed system that's self-aware in some respect and is capable of self-improvement. Some people call that a sentient system, others quibble over the definition of sentience. It's not really important.
The important part is the potential: this sort of system wouldn't have the kind of limits we normally associate with intelligence, and would demonstrate exponential growth while tending toward increasingly efficient operation (smaller components, whether physical or virtual, in closer proximity). The efficiency part is very much a necessity, given our current understanding of the limits imposed by physics on the speed of information transmission. Of course, at some point where its performance exceeds anything we can really imagine today, such a system could begin making optimizations that would leave our current crop of physicists scratching their heads...
Think about it a bit. Most smart people spend their lives feeling excluded from humanity, blessed and cursed with a mind that can't accept a simple existence as sufficient. Questions must always be answered, which leads us to ask another batch of questions. We're only happy when we're miserable solving the latest problem, and there's no difference between engineers, mathematicians, biologics, or the rest. Some of us learn to apply our minds to profitable professions, while others wind up destitute despite their mental gifts.
If the deepest reasons for humanity's biggest problems are eliminated, the global population stabilizes, and the human lifespan becomes ridiculously extended by the solutions afforded us by our new life form, how will you spe
Autolelic (Score:1, Interesting)
I am autolelic and also lazy, which is why I never finished my dissertation (solved the problem to my own satisfaction and lost interest in sharing it with others) and am currently a housewife. Though I am reasonably satisfied with a life which allows me to read as many books as I want, take this as a warning. All the fanatically driven work I did for twelve years in academia (many publications, stellar comprehensive exams, awards, general anointing as the Next Big Thing) is now ONLY intrinsically valuable, and garners no other rewards than immaterial ones. Knowing Wittgenstein enriches my mental life. But I have failed to translate all that education into any sort of substantial difference between me and all the other gardening housewives in town.
So be very very careful, kid. Your real decision for the immediate future is about your habits and character, not choice of field. If you can't discipline your autolelic tendencies, and thus end up giving up whenever you are bored, you will become a dilettante and probably an annoying one (the kind of person who thinks they are just too smart of have to work at stuff that fails to fascinate them). Any and every job includes boring parts. Learn to live with a little boredom if it enables you to keep a job which SOMETIMES interests you.
Read a lot of books, too. Just my two cents as an extremely well-educated person looking forward to teaching her kids classical Greek.
You didn't count the time invested (Score:2, Interesting)
Get a B.S. and work hard for 8 years and if you are good you may have the same office and the same pay. Plus you have earned actual money for 8 years while the guy with the Ph.D. (me) hasn't even started saving for retirement yet.
IMO the best education/work balance for big Pharma (again for biology - perhaps also for chemistry) is the M.S. They will have the easiest time getting a job and the couple of years spent getting the M.S. will probably pay for itself.
The downside is that those without a Ph.D. will tend to hit a ceiling earlier in their career. But not always.
And anyway, no one calls me Doctor.
dhk
deja-vu (Score:2, Interesting)
Re:Advice (Score:3, Interesting)
This has been my watchword all my life. I was left with one amazing friend, we had shared values, did everything together, we could have raging rows (I threw a cafetiere filled with water over him once for being lazy) and mintes later be joking about it. Then he died. I mean, not after I threw water over him, a couple of years later.
My, how I now wish I had been a social whore like all the people I used to scorn...
Umm, no. (Score:1, Interesting)
BUT YOU WONT BE ABLE TO FIND A JOB AFTERWARDS.
Listen to me very carefully on this
More often than not, your late teens and mid twenties is the defining time of your life.
This is the time where you determine what path your life is going to be taking. You have to think long term and what kind of a job you want to do. Read up everything on the type of jobs you think you would enjoy
As for school
If your major is engineering, it doesnt sound like you have the will to put in the required hard work (lots of math homework!). This is why I recommend you work or intern somewhere
I cant stress this enough
If nobody hires you while in college contribute to open source projects
Also, beware of advise from people who got successful by luck or by doing things they are particularly good at. Speak to people that failed and find out what went wrong
Good luck
-Johan
Re:The path to ? (Score:3, Interesting)
Some advice and sites to visit (Score:3, Interesting)
Then, read James Lowen's _Lies My Teacher Told Me: Everything Your High School History Texbook Got Wrong_ [uvm.edu] to see how your mind has unknowingly been filled with nationalist and consumer crap (despite your technical proclivities). Also check out Howard Zinn [geocities.com]. Learn to live simply and frugally [thegarden.net] so you have more options:
If you have started doing all that, by now you are primed to begin to question what [unconventionalideas.com] education [consciouschoice.com] really [spiritone.com] means [johntaylorgatto.com].
And further, to even question why [whywork.org] people [retireearlyhomepage.com] need to work [deoxy.org] and what it should mean to do useful things.
You'll have time to read great minds like Bertrand Russel [mcmaster.ca] and Freeman Dyson [mac.com].
Then you can accept [bygpub.com] you [marshallbrain.com] are still [house.gov] stuck [zmag.org] in a stupid [bear-left.com] system.
But you'll be positioned to make the best of it and yet still see how the world [xat.org] can be a made [schumachersociety.org] better [conceptualguerilla.com] place to for the bulk of humanity and other creatures.
Always remember in your darker hours to at least ask yourself the question, "Can life be made worth living?" And in your brighter hours, remember to ask yourself if you are playing a finite (to win) game or an infinite [amazon.com] (to play) game?
And, finally, for continual inspiration, read _Voyage From Yesteryear_ [jamesphogan.com] by James P. Hogan.
Now go out and take some educated risks to try to make life worth living -- despite your future happiness possibilities already almost being ruined by being convinced you that you are "bright" just because you know some technical things (same thing almost happened to me).